October 26, 2017
There is an overturned bus on our street, I can see it from my window.
Whenever the power is not going on/off at random times, the lights in the house are almost constantly on. Ever since the sky has turned that dark, purple,black, the city has just been drenched in perpertual darkness.
Going outside of the house is strictly forbidden as my parents say. Not that I would want to go outside anyway. Everything is so dark and alien. And who know's what stupid shit people are doing out there. Don't really need to go outside anyway, the schools were shut down yesterday.
I try to make light of things but its getting harder and harder to do. No one speaks in our house, the constant darkness is incredibly draining and everyone's realized that something bad is on its way.
Why did everything just have to get out of control? Why did all of this happen? Did we really deserve this? Is this what we get for not taking care of our planet or is it something else? Something we can't even fathom. But there really isn't any point in asking questions is there? I'm asking questions that i'm 99.9% sure will never get answered. Why? Because i'll be gone. Just like everyone else.
Just a few minutes ago, I came to the realization this will be on of the few, if not, the last post I will make. So as to close up my meaningless-pathetic existence, I just have a few departing words. I have done things, and I am quite grateful for the life I was given, and for the family and friends I shared it with.
I don't know if i'm ready to die, but there's nothing I can really do about it. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't incredibly nervous. I just want to personally say to the people that are reading this. This. This very paragraph. This very sentence. That I don't know what will happen in the next couple of days, and I'm not sure if I can comfort you. But I want you to know, if I knew you as family or a friend that I loved you. Even if I don't know you, or if this if the first time you've read anything I've posted that I wish I got to know you and see how our paths could have intersected and connected in this life.
That's all and goodnight.
Jenny Out.
Whenever the power is not going on/off at random times, the lights in the house are almost constantly on. Ever since the sky has turned that dark, purple,black, the city has just been drenched in perpertual darkness.
Going outside of the house is strictly forbidden as my parents say. Not that I would want to go outside anyway. Everything is so dark and alien. And who know's what stupid shit people are doing out there. Don't really need to go outside anyway, the schools were shut down yesterday.
I try to make light of things but its getting harder and harder to do. No one speaks in our house, the constant darkness is incredibly draining and everyone's realized that something bad is on its way.
Why did everything just have to get out of control? Why did all of this happen? Did we really deserve this? Is this what we get for not taking care of our planet or is it something else? Something we can't even fathom. But there really isn't any point in asking questions is there? I'm asking questions that i'm 99.9% sure will never get answered. Why? Because i'll be gone. Just like everyone else.
Just a few minutes ago, I came to the realization this will be on of the few, if not, the last post I will make. So as to close up my meaningless-pathetic existence, I just have a few departing words. I have done things, and I am quite grateful for the life I was given, and for the family and friends I shared it with.
I don't know if i'm ready to die, but there's nothing I can really do about it. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't incredibly nervous. I just want to personally say to the people that are reading this. This. This very paragraph. This very sentence. That I don't know what will happen in the next couple of days, and I'm not sure if I can comfort you. But I want you to know, if I knew you as family or a friend that I loved you. Even if I don't know you, or if this if the first time you've read anything I've posted that I wish I got to know you and see how our paths could have intersected and connected in this life.
That's all and goodnight.
Jenny Out.
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Monday, October 23, 2006.
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